My hopes for 2011

I have never been much of a "resolution" type when it comes to a new year.
Change, comittment, tranformation....all those adjectives that go along with resolutions....those should be a constant chase no matter what time of year.
So....
I haven't put a whole lot of thought into what direction I want things to go for 2011...
I have random desires of the heart....I guess maybe this will be a great way to revisit this page
this time next year to see where my desires were fulfilled....

(in no specific order and trying to be realistic)

*to see the seizure monster tamed if not slayed....praying a new med will give my boy a chance know what life is like with some seizure control

*no more infantile spasms!!!!!!!

*for Hudson to hold his head up

*I would like this to be the year we get specific info on where this disease emerged from

*to feel peace

*to see Hudson smile or giggle

*to find we are steps closer in some kind of treatment for mitochondrial disease that will benefit H

*to slow down and appreciate the quiet moments with my children

*those in my life who desperately need God would seek him out

*that I seek God (instead of turning my back) out when I feel alone. lost and fearful

*getting skilled nursing care for Hudson
*somehow I find a way to take time for me....which will only result in getting skilled nursing for Hudson ( i am working on this seemingly impossible task)

*continued health and happiness for Hunter and Hailey
 

*less hospitalizations for Hudson

*my 14 yo Lab continues motoring along

*financial stressors relieved

*trusting God with our work/living situation

*treasure and take time for friends and family who are dear to me

*feeling content and happy and loved

* to recognize the **small** miracles unfolding around me in every day living



Thinking about the "big picture"...that there is a whole year ahead, that can provide time for much change...in good and bad ways....overwhelms me.

Since Hudson, I have learned how to live day by day.....
....I try not to think of what the future may or may not hold....
I pray for much of the above to be in my future and will continue being grateful for each day I am given and the lesson learned in that day.