Mystery diagnosis

I was turned on to this show from my dear friend who is slightly addicted to the OWN (Oprah Winfrey Network...you know who you are Lol!!!)
Anyways, it is a pretty compelling show. If you haven't seen a episode, it's about how people come down with illnesses and symptoms, that are either diagnosed wrong or are difficult to diagnose, and so it plays out with how they appeared, their search to find answers (many times misdiagnosed and several doctors later) through the medical field and then the final outcome.
I don't have a lot of t.v. time, usually in the evening around bedtime. I usually like mindless/junk  t.v....Idol,
BH Housewives, Millionaire Matchmaker, Greys Anatomy....yeah...junk....but at the end of my day it's the perfect escape....
Mystery Diagnosis is pretty intense for me. It conjures up alot of emotions for me in regards to Hudson. Sometimes I am just compelled to watch....sometimes I wonder if I haven't done enough.
There is an episode with a baby who started seizing at 2 months...I think I cried the entire episode....it brought me right back to the earlier days....when we thought he was healthy....then the reflux and vomiting....then the seizures....the the chasing your tail trying to find answers. For this baby, it ended up being a vitamin B deficiency....I sat there with tears, thinking why couldn't our outcome been so simple? All this baby needed was a lifetime of heavy supplements of the deficiency....that would have been our dream answer! I felt jealous watching that episode...I wanted to be those parents who could say my child's catastrophic seizures disappeared with a simple vitamin....no....that is just not the way the story is written for us.

This morning I saw another one. A little boy seemingly healthy and developing normal. Had surgery for what was dx as a lazy eye...by age one he started loosing his abilities....he slowly regressed in walking and talking....for years he was misdiagnosed....they did Spinal Tap,  MRI, CAT, muscle biopsy...they thought he had muscular dystrophy, but the biopsy came back normal. There were abnormalities on his brain scans...at one point one group of doctors were certain he had a brain tumor. After years of numerous tests, wrong leads, they got in yet another doctors hands, she did a blood test, testing for a gene that causes a rare disease affecting 10 known cases....he came back positive. The name...a long medical term....basically the nerves in the brain get bogged down and die....resulting in regression in motor skills and speech. There is no cure. They don't know what causes it...could be genetic, could be environmental.
At the end of the show they showed him wheel chair bound, parents divorced, mom loving on her son and treasuring every day she has with him. She ended the show saying that this is temporary and one day he will be free of this disease....well you can imagine the tears streaming from my face after that one. Funny how I totally felt like I could relate to that mother...I understood her pain...her outlook....her love and passion for her little boy....I just wanted to give her a big ole giant hug through the TV screen. Even though I don't know her, or know any of my blog friends...it's that same instant connection...it's a sisterhood of sorts....you feel so connected, you can relate in ways no one else can possibly understand...the journey for answers, the emotional roller coaster, the toll it takes on relationships and marriage, the fears, the hopes, the unimaginable fight for your flesh....the love that is unlike any other....

After watching that I got up and went into Hudson's room. Sound asleep...he appears so "normal" when he's sleeping so peacefully....I kissed his little forehead....I kissed his soft, puffy cheeks...and just felt so thankful he is here.